I would be lying if I say I can totally ignore your feelings and not feel bad.
I wish I don’t have to hurt you so much. And I really hope that you are doing well in your life too…
Sometimes I really wonder if I’m heartless as what most ppl might think. But I guess I’m just numb to everything alr…
I’ve once put in everything I have. All my love, all my energy, all my effort. But humans do get tired, humans do get sick of trying and humans will run out of patience too.
I still want to thank you, for being a part of my life for so many years, throughout my whole teenage life whether we are together or not. I still want to thank you, for all the really beautiful memories we shared and all the hard time that we had been through. I still want to thank you, for letting me experience and learn how is it like to love someone. You are still someone I hold close to my heart, and you will always always always be a friend that I would rmb for life.
I’m sorry things have to turn out this way… Seems like in the end I’m the one who give up on us, not you. Idk how things happened during that period, everything happened so fast and it just seems like a nightmare to me. I’m sorry that I have to put you through all the pain and agony. Up till now I still have not give you any reason for this separation.
Maybe I’ve changed like what you said. Idk.
Maybe it was a sudden realisation of how things are not the same anymore. Everytime I tried talking to to you, you doesn’t seem to be interested. And you sound so distant away.
Everything we meet, it feels like we are just meeting for the sake of meeting.
Everytime there is problem, somehow you won’t want to talk about it and both of us just pretend that nothing is wrong. And such problems snowball, and become bigger and bigger.
Maybe the problem lies with me.
Maybe it’s like how other ppl judged me and said that I’m the bad guy who hurts you.
Maybe it’s like what my mum said that I found someone better and broke up with you.
Maybe it’s because I realised that I’m clinging onto thin air, clinging onto a relationship and hoping that it will work out.
Maybe you hate me now, I won’t blame you. I just hope that one day you will find and meet a better girl, someone who is much better than me. Someone who can treat and take care of you better than me. Someone with a better patience than me. Someone who can understand you better. Someone who is able to make you smile effortlessly. Someone who is cuter, someone who is shorter. Someone who deserves you. Someone who treats you much better than I do. Someone who doesn’t hurt you. Someone who is everything that you have ever wanted in a girl.
I will still be here, and always will be here if you ever need a friend to talk to. I really really wish that you can find your own happiness too…